Wednesday, November 5, 2008

This is quite a November the 4th/5th

So I've had some friends come in from out of town. They are in a band and currently on tour,( ) and I've been having so much fun hanging with them again and just catching up. A few days ago though, I really didn't know what to think about it. When I heard they were coming into town, I was excited, but at the same time, not. For those of you who do know, I'm from Michigan, and these guys if you haven't connected the dots, are also from there, but I've been trying so hard the whole time that I've been in Arizona to keep the life that I had in Michigan, well in Michigan. So when I found out they were coming, at first I really didn't know what to think, but ever since they got here, I've been realizing how much of a mistake it is that I put distance between myself, and the relationships that I had back there, and that the whole time spent there wasn't all bad. That I have good friends, and even family still back there, and that God put me there for some reason through that point in my life, and that the relationships that I gained by living there, were a blessing from God.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Never underestimate the word "Challenge"

So this past weekend was the men's challenge and to be honest, I didn't think it would be all that challenging. Fortunately for me, I was dead wrong. It pretty much was a an entree of your an idiot with a side of please kick here. Dean talked about looking at life through Gods lens and not our own. We sit there and we don't understand why God allows certain things to happen in our life, or when things don't go the way we want them to, we get upset and frustrated. We don't look at the big picture. We don't see what God is seeing. We see what we allow/want ourselves to see.

Ya, this weekend was tough, but on Saturday night, it got just a wee bit more challenging. I was told that some changes were going to be made, and that I wasn't going to be playing the final set Sunday morning like I was supposed to. Now some of you may or may not know this, but playing drums for worship is my passion. I love it. It's the single most favorite thing that I do through my weeks and when I was told that, I practically exploaded with anger and frustration, but before I did, I caught myself. I slowly started to realize that maybe I needed this. Maybe God wanted to show me something. Maybe, I need to just take a back seat and not do things my way this time.

Times like these are tough, but I'm slowly learning different things that are slowly shaping me into the man I want to be. Gotta love it.

Monday, September 29, 2008

An Unexpected Change of Events

So tonight I had made some plans to hang out with some friends for dinner, and one of my friends accidentally double booked himself, which even I've done because I'm just so..... popular? Anyways, I eventually found myself a few rows from the back of a Lincoln Brewster concert. Now I've never really been a big fan of Lincoln Brewster's music, but don't get me wrong, the man is an amazing musician, like ridiculous. I gotta admit, the cat's got some chops, but what hit me tonight wasn't his music. He started to give us a little insight into his past. He talked about how his home life wasn't at all what it should have been and about his step dad, and then he talked about what his pastor told him. He said (and I'm not gonna bother quoting because I don't think this is exact but..) he said something like It's not about were you came from, but about where your going. At that point, I realized something. I realized that for a while, I've been dwelling in the past. Holding grudges, bad habits, and that what is done is over with and won't come back around. That I should be looking towards the future. God has something in store for me.... I'm not sure what it is, but I need to learn to let what has happened go, and embrace what is to come.